The Awkwardness of Being a Half Child, Half Adult, and Fully Confused.

There's a particular stage in life where you're not really a child anymore, but you're not fully an adult either. You're somewhere in-between. Standing on a bridge, looking at two shores, and realizing you don't belong completely to either.

As a child, it always feels like the world has predetermined your destiny from the start: what you wore, where you went, when you slept. That lack of control always felt so comforting. Now, the world hands you choices like a deck of cards and expects you to get it right. You suddenly hear "You're growing up!" quite too often but no one necessarily gives you the manual.

You're still told to be responsible but also reminded you're "still a kid". You're expected to know your future plans but also scolded when you want freedom too soon. You feel old enough to question everything but too young to have your questions taken too seriously. It feels like living in a body that hasn't fully decided what it wants to be yet: half child, half adult, and fully confused.

The awkwardness feels like wanting to laugh at silly memes but also staying awake at 2 am, worrying about life after school or wishing for independence but secretly missing the simplicity of being tucked into bed. This confusion is not a flaw, it's a season. Think of it as the process a caterpillar turns into a butterfly. You can't crawl back into being a caterpillar, and you're not strong enough to fly as a butterfly. All you can do is sit in the middle, let the awkwardness stretch you and trust that he confusion is shaping you into something more.

Maybe the awkwardness is proof you're growing. Proof that you're learning to hold both sides of yourself: the softness of childhood and the sharp edges of adulthood, without dropping either.

So, if you feel like you don't fully fit anywhere right now, that's okay. None of us do. I'm not going to write a step-by-step guide on how to not be confused because everyone feels that way. We are all stumbling through the same in-between space, half-children, half adults, and fully confused.

And maybe, just maybe, that confusion is the most human thing about us.